Naaman

Now what

Day two and not much is new
the house is still empty
the life and light has left
despair is fought off now only by hustle
struggle pride
doing shit not just saying it
I broke it now’s the time to pay up.

my dog

She’s afraid
of me.
She can see all that’s trapped inside
And I can’t hide from her.
She knows just what’s eating me
But she can’t do anything
Just lick my face and try to say
it’s all ok.
But who are we kidding.

The sound that you hear is shit hitting the fan

Fuck this
Empty home alone
Echoing laughter
Bitter tears stream
Following after the love
That has long since graced this fallow shore
Fucking bore of a person I am
With my pen in hand
Etching out these feelings on skin
so thin that you might even bleed just watching
I am a wreck If you must ask
True love does it last?
I’ll tell you tomorrow
As soon as the pain and the sorrow pass
Just give me another glass and let me
Wallow in the melancholy

And yes I know you and your family are reading this and I don’t care.

AWKWARD!

(I enter. You are there and I am tired of having to run from your prescence)

Enough of this awkward shit! I see you at these parties, and I’m tired of having to pretend I don’t see you so hi how have you been?

Hi, good it has been kind of weird seeing you here.

I’m here all the time, I just live around the corner.

I only get to come out here when there are parties I live in Ft. Worth. So…

So what do you do there?

I work for Whole Foods.

Aw Starbucks.

I heard you got married.

Yeah two and a half years now. She’s great.

She would have to be.

Yeah.

I’m happy for you.

Thanks, listen about what happened, I’m really sorry.

sorry, for what?

I was a jerk and I was only thinking of myself and

Yeah,

Seriously, I’m reall sorry I look back and what I did was one of the worst things I’ve ever done.

I was eightteen and you used me and then threw me away.

I know I’m…

(Enter drunken rambling friend who almost trips then walks away, I continue)

There he goes. I heard you tried to make him do coke one time.

Who told you that?

He did.

I might have offered him some cause I had some on me and was trying to share, but to try and make him is silly.

It’s just what I heard.

A lot has changed about me since you did what you did to me. I like drugs.

Ok,

It made me rethink a lot of things like Christianity,and I decided I’m not a christian anymore.

Listen if I could change it all I would but I-

Remorse doesn’t make you any less of an asshole.

(Walk away from me and the last word I will ever hear from you is asshole. I feel somehow better. Thankfully, because this could have been a lot worse.)